Tonight, the Moon played hide-and-seek with me.
You see, I'm not really used to tracking its position in the sky and knowing where it is at any given time. I usually just look out and notice it if it's there; otherwise, I don't even remember it. But when I came looking for it tonight, it wasn't where I usually see it, ie outside our apartment windows. With a laugh, I turned around to look at my dear hubby and exclaimed "someone stole the Moon!" Haha. I know, it's not all that funny and I need to get out more. That is exactly what my other half's expression told me when he looked back at me with that cute frown of his, but hey, one has to laugh at one's own jokes, right?
Anyhow, I wanted to see that Full Moon tonight - we only get one of those once in a blue moon, haha - so I bid my time (it was still 2 hours to FM time). I waited until 20h13, put my coat and shoes on and went searching for the Moon. My quest took me out back in the parking lot area of the apartment complex and sure enough, there was the Moon!
Well, what little I could see through the clouds anyway...
I admired the moonlight's play on the dark clouds and squinted to try and see even a sliver of moon to no avail; it was well hidden. Like I said... hide-and-seek. I could only make out its outline behind the cloud cover that was floating endlessly in front of it. Still, it was pretty and peaceful - despite the background noises of cars and buses driving down the street some 25m away, and celebrations getting under way for the New Year. So, I sat on the low concrete wall that surrounds the law between the parking lot and the buildings, and I cranked my head up.
I tried to think of something to say - they say you should talk to the Mother and reflect on your thoughts and feelings - but I drew a blank somehow. I guess you could say I was mesmerized... or something.
The moonlight cast like a halo of silvery fluff that distorted and changed as the clouds' density and fluffiness changed. I looked in silence for some time and felt a sort of peace settle over me. And then it happened... the break in the clouds that revealed the Moon to my eager eyes. It was like the Moon had slid out of its shroud to answer my call. Yes, I know it didn't. It doesn't do things just to please me. Or does it?
And while my mood, until then, had been more some sort of subdued expectancy, it suddenly turned into something else entirely. The Full Moon pierced briefly through the clouds, all glorious silvery sheen and cold beauty, and I felt... happy. A big smile spread through me - not just on my face, but through my whole being. I had gone to meet the Birch Moon and got my reward. For a moment, I was content and at peace with myself. Ready for my new beginnings. The world simply dissolved around me and I stared with hungry eyes at the vanishing beauty. I watched until it slid back behind the clouds again and then I thanked the Moon and let the feeling wash over me.
Like they say, little things mean a lot, true?